I don't know about you, but sometimes it feels like I go through life fighting. Fighting to prove I'm intelligent and creative at my job (it's not always easy being a woman in the business world!). Fighting the thoughts that creep into my mind of doubt and worry of the future. Fighting negative emotions that get me down from my past. Most recently, fighting to prove my worth to a man who somehow got the hold over me to have me so focused on him and trying to be everything he wanted, that I lost focus of Jesus. Fighting to break free but being sucked back in through lies and manipulation. My flesh was fighting to prove I was in fact good enough. Why?
Is there anything that you're fighting for that is distracting you from the life that's in store for you? Sucking all of your energy and time?
God already won the war for us so that we don't have to fight! Isn't that amazing? He loves us so much that he did it all for us. Left the throne in Heaven to come down and teach and heal and DIE for us. Rose again for us so that we have a living God that we can have a relationship with. Defeated the enemy! He's done it all and we just get to accept it. Can you believe that? What about ... there's no such thing as a free lunch? Well, yes there is. With Jesus. It's just so hard to fathom because on this earth we have to fight for everything ourselves.
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast (Ephesians 2:8-9)
He won so why am I fighting? The only one we need to worry about proving anything to is God. On judgement day, no one else's opinion matters. He holds the keys to the pearly gates of heaven.
So now, I'm obeying. No more fighting for MY way, just accepting the gift of GODS way. It's such a better place to be! His plan is so much better. I want to live in the land of obeying God forever and never even visit anywhere else!! He is the Lord of my life. Wow, I just sighed with relief.
Blessed are those who hear the word of God and keep it! (Luke 11:28)
I was recently led off the path & in a relationship where I was not respected or valued at all. Where I was fed lies for breakfast lunch and dinner, and sadly, licked them up like peanut butter. Where the scripture was used to prove this person's point rather than God's. Where I was told he (lets call him: the wolf) was saved, when I finally realized his actions did not match his words, I was already too far in ... love, blind sided, a jail of manipulation. I was baited in with sweet words of forever, and "you're an answered prayer from God". I was condemned for my past and held hostage in it. I was pulled into sin by someone who claimed to be holy. All the while trying to prove myself. If I could just prove that the lies he said about me weren't true, he'd be happy. We'd be happy. I'd receive his promise of unconditional love and forever. Sounds pretty sad, right?
Then I snapped back out of it and realized ... what am I doing?!? I'm fighting for a future of happiness when I'm nowhere near happy right now! I won't be sucked in to fighting, because God already won! He pulled me out! He revealed the lies and just as I almost got sucked back in a few days ago - He showed me once more. Again I am hounded with emails, but I won't fight back. The war is over. I have tears in my eyes as I write this, as I could not have broken free on my own.
As soon as I listened to Him 3 months ago, He opened doors for me. As soon as I said ... Jesus, you hold my tomorrow! You lead and I will follow. A new start, a new state, a new job - and it's all such a blessing.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.
He has other plans for me. & for you too if you're fighting to prove ... anything! We don't need to fight to be loved, Jesus gives that to us freely, and it's a love that sets us free.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28)
Broken but stronger,
Meagan
9 comments:
Not only are you worthy, you are strong and beautiful. I love you bestir. And I am so happy to call you my sister in Christ. You are amazing and strong Megz and I love you chica!
One thing for sure God created everything and has a use for everything He created. No reason for guilt nor shame. God came to save the sinners. Do you know any? Once He catches a fish He cleans everyone to the point of salvation and life with Him forever! While salvation is one step, albeit a major one, the growth in sanctification is an on going process towards righteousness and being a good and faithful servant.
Nothing happens without God allowing it. We must simply trust in Him as for the why's. Through everything we use discernment to do what He has taught us thus far. Through His love comes the fruits.
God has a plan and we do not always like the timing but the timing is perfect as all good gifts come from above.
God will provide for you and those who are faithful and obedient. You have nothing to fear but God Himself. To fear God is the thought of not pleasing Him and His commands as you love Him so much you our would never want to displease or fail Him as it would break your heart. But even so He is gracious and merciful.
God loves you and God is love.
May He continue to bless you and may you discern the wolves which are in sheeps clothing. God has better things in mind for you.
I need to emphasize that God has won but as His warriors we must wear His suit of armour. Satan will continue to shoot fiery arrows but God has given us the power to subdue and even the ability to overcome the fleshly ways.
Also, perhaps if you view things from the side of doing everything for God which would entail you doing your best with the gifts He has given you and for His glory you won't feel the pride that motivates you to prove yourself. More of God and less of self.
Stay strong in our Lord and Savior.
Bondservant, thank you for your comment I really appreciate it! This is all very true and wise. The good Lord has used you to speak to me. :)
Unknown ;) thank you for your comment! & thank God for your friendship, I could not have done it without you. LOVE you!
Sometimes God takes us through difficult places. He doesn’t exempt us from Red Sea experiences, from coming right up to the tippy-toe edge and not knowing how we’re going to get through or how we’re going to survive and then watching Him part the waters. He doesn’t take us around them. He doesn’t help us avoid them. He takes us through those places and preserves us in the midst of them.
Nancy Leigh DeMoss
Got this from a Sister in Christ (Becca Powall). As I read this, I thought of you and me. You are such a strong and beautiful person from the inside out. We know that God uses our trials for good. He's a faithful and merciful God. Like you said, He already won the the battle. He is our deliverer and defender. As long as we take it to the Lord, we don't need to worry anymore.
Of course everyday is a battle. I go through it all the time. The enemy would get a hold of me and I of course would fall for it. But, I'm tired of the same old games he plays. I'm learning to rebuke him and taking it to the Almighty God.
I pray that you will keep your eyes on the Cross even through tough times. Never forget that you are never alone. He is always there with you and for you. I'm so proud of you. The Lord amazes me all the time how He uses our hurt for good. Now, look at you. Without trials there's no testimony. And sister, you got your testimony!!!
Stay strong in the Lord. I love you sister. Don't forget I'm only a phone call away.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13
Such a great post, thank you sister! I love you so.
Meagan- as a person from your past and no longer in your life I would just like to say you are a beautiful person. I am not sure what happened in our friendship but it ended suddenly and it makes me sad to read that you have been through these pains. I know you will stand up tall and make it through this. I am not a religious person but even I found words of strength in your post. You are a beautiful writer- a talent I didn’t know you possessed- and you will find your way through the tough business world. Stay strong and enjoy the little things in life.
I just saw this last comment from August, thank you Anonymous - whoever you are. :)
anon is the wolf.
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