I don't know about you, but sometimes it feels like I go through life fighting. Fighting to prove I'm intelligent and creative at my job (it's not always easy being a woman in the business world!). Fighting the thoughts that creep into my mind of doubt and worry of the future. Fighting negative emotions that get me down from my past. Most recently, fighting to prove my worth to a man who somehow got the hold over me to have me so focused on him and trying to be everything he wanted, that I lost focus of Jesus. Fighting to break free but being sucked back in through lies and manipulation. My flesh was fighting to prove I was in fact good enough. Why?
Is there anything that you're fighting for that is distracting you from the life that's in store for you? Sucking all of your energy and time?
God already won the war for us so that we don't have to fight! Isn't that amazing? He loves us so much that he did it all for us. Left the throne in Heaven to come down and teach and heal and DIE for us. Rose again for us so that we have a living God that we can have a relationship with. Defeated the enemy! He's done it all and we just get to accept it. Can you believe that? What about ... there's no such thing as a free lunch? Well, yes there is. With Jesus. It's just so hard to fathom because on this earth we have to fight for everything ourselves.
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast (Ephesians 2:8-9)
He won so why am I fighting? The only one we need to worry about proving anything to is God. On judgement day, no one else's opinion matters. He holds the keys to the pearly gates of heaven.
So now, I'm obeying. No more fighting for MY way, just accepting the gift of GODS way. It's such a better place to be! His plan is so much better. I want to live in the land of obeying God forever and never even visit anywhere else!! He is the Lord of my life. Wow, I just sighed with relief.
Blessed are those who hear the word of God and keep it! (Luke 11:28)
I was recently led off the path & in a relationship where I was not respected or valued at all. Where I was fed lies for breakfast lunch and dinner, and sadly, licked them up like peanut butter. Where the scripture was used to prove this person's point rather than God's. Where I was told he (lets call him: the wolf) was saved, when I finally realized his actions did not match his words, I was already too far in ... love, blind sided, a jail of manipulation. I was baited in with sweet words of forever, and "you're an answered prayer from God". I was condemned for my past and held hostage in it. I was pulled into sin by someone who claimed to be holy. All the while trying to prove myself. If I could just prove that the lies he said about me weren't true, he'd be happy. We'd be happy. I'd receive his promise of unconditional love and forever. Sounds pretty sad, right?
Then I snapped back out of it and realized ... what am I doing?!? I'm fighting for a future of happiness when I'm nowhere near happy right now! I won't be sucked in to fighting, because God already won! He pulled me out! He revealed the lies and just as I almost got sucked back in a few days ago - He showed me once more. Again I am hounded with emails, but I won't fight back. The war is over. I have tears in my eyes as I write this, as I could not have broken free on my own.
As soon as I listened to Him 3 months ago, He opened doors for me. As soon as I said ... Jesus, you hold my tomorrow! You lead and I will follow. A new start, a new state, a new job - and it's all such a blessing.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.
He has other plans for me. & for you too if you're fighting to prove ... anything! We don't need to fight to be loved, Jesus gives that to us freely, and it's a love that sets us free.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28)
Broken but stronger,
Meagan
